"Ever notice how happy kids don’t write in their diaries very much? They don’t have to. Life’s too fun. Diaries are for when life isn’t fun. They’re for figuring what went wrong." - Lesley Arfin

Tonight I'll write on my diary because I got my heart broken today & I need to figure out what's wrong. What's wrong with me. What's going to go wrong with me and people. Tonight I'm going to write on my diary because my diary never judges, just like hailey. & I'm tired of being judged for the past few days when nothing I'd done seemed to satisfy people. Of being judged for being me. Tonight, I really wish I have something more of a happiness to hang on my blog but maybe later. Because right now right this second, more of a happiness is outdone by more of a shock. More of a shock how people really think of me. Think of us.

Maybe later

I should be sleeping because Im having church tomorrow. but mum is leaving soon and I am feeling very guilty because I have not been exactly the best daughter for the past days. & then Mizi is not for another week though today we spent some time watching a person killing so many people brutally and pouting each other every now & then, I miss him still. And it's sad. I wish tomorrow never comes, I wish we all stay here

Talking about money. In the morning I saw this freaking nice gojane laced up sandals & I did not even have fucking twenty bucks in my accounts. I was almost on the verge of tears, dang twas emotional, rofl. So I'm trying really hard not to spend my money on stuffs that I know I won't wear. Work was boringly tiring. Closing was all about keeping it clean & I have not even clean my house for the past one month. Sigh. Couldn't complain though 'cause I know as a matter of fact that once it gets busy, I won't be able to handle it. MMH, gotta go sleep fetching mummy tomorrow.

p/s : I wish they don't need so many people to serve the country. I want z (sobs)

First day was so first day, if y'know what I mean. Something more for 25 bucks :)

Mumsie is coming to town from wednesday to monday, & I can't wait for movie date with Z. & want to know something cool? I just beat many buyers from getting this top + necklace because the seller likes me best. Now now, if that isn't something to be grateful about. I don't know what is :>

Blew off hundred bucks in two days for a new bag and many new clothes. I shall start depriving myself from buying, and more on selling instead. Good thing I'll be starting work tomorrow & I hope that means lesser time on computer. Owell shrugs. Just had 3 sausages and many nuggets because I was famished, and by the way it's 11:18 PM now. Time is definitely going very slow today. I hope tomorrow would go well. Shit

Shade up your heart fella' ;


Sundays are always the best. Lazy lazy sundays are always good to cap the week off. I hope this coming week would be better. I always pray so. Hills time now, & ns boy 's off to camp !

Right round, Right round




It rained today, life sucks being a fat shortie. Stayed at home with favourite boy cooking spaghetti, instant lasagna & chicken soup. I miss you already :>

this is L-O ; L.O.V.E




Horrendous outfit but Im running out of time

I'm so damned dogged out. Slumber session with haileyluvthebombersxs! since yesterday. Rocked the kitchen with our potato salad & milk-macaroni cheese. I gotta say I love to cook even though I barely am qualified to be called one, hey you don't have to be good to love something aye. Turned in early dawn because we. were. so. tired. Woke up to check the results, and well, at least I passed my elective module. I promise I'll come to school every day now so I could get better grades for elective module which is so easy peasy to score and has a credit of two. So pls don't gimme anymore Ds for my gems. Dragged Hailey to do thousands meetups with me right after we're ready and only got home at 7.30 PM. Liking my new dresses and rings but they're definitely unnecessary. Owell, what a girl to do. American idol was f boring because the theme was country and I didn't get anything about it but kris was f cute. Played texting game with the bored ns boy and I can't totally wait for friday. Like finally man.

& if you're still reading till here. Wow, you really have nothing to do

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It's actually 12:29am now the next day already, & I can't sleep.. . I could actually if I only I tried to. But I don't feel like sleeping just yet. Heck, I don't even feel like going to church tomorrow, which by the way, I've already gone to for at least 4 weeks in a row :) Not so much for God to be proud of, but something to be less ashamed about.

I'm so unfocused these days, and I think the lack of human's contact is accountable for that provided the numerous amount of contacts with dead buyers is not counted. I mean, seriously why. Why would you confirmed on getting something when you know at the back of your head that it's not really what you're looking for. You shitheads. I know how cheesy and sappy my song is but it sounded not that bad when michael in american idol sang it. O, how I love the show

What I miss about you ? A great many, I should say. Like how remarkable your passion in playing games is, you'll ignore me completely. Or, how amazingly as childish you are when we're together you make me laugh so hard. Of course too, the way you'd hum along with me though you don't even know what I'm singing. And a little of your voice, your face, your walk, your hold, your warmth and basically you. Miss you every minute, miss missing you every second. As much as I wish you're not so occupied serving the nation.. You're not that faraway from my heart. && another week wouldn't even matter as long as I get to see you. Love you homeboy :)

I'm so tired right now. Very much easily irritated. Went out with H ( haha) to watch push, & the coin flipped us to eat pastamania. Bumped to a number of people, people that I didn't know I could bump to . Read; primary school friend & most-hated senior. But t'was all well and good. Many sinful treats, but hey I been selling hard alrigght, & skipping meals dilligently too, rofl.

Mizi just called. Policeman has been exercising hard so I heard. They just went to the stadium to watch soccer and girls in mini skirts. Very tough indeed mr officer. Hahahaha. Can't wait to see you in one-week time. Miss you so :>

Oh, p/s to you, you're pretty messed up yourself and my life would definitely not suck without you. Because it's been so as long as I could remember, and the last time I checked .. . my life is rocking with gfs , bf and lots of pretty clothes. So why don't you save all your bitch fits 'cause you might need them to reflect upon. Thank you very much

Fifth

If that girl could get a dime for every pair of listening ear she gets, she's gonna be a total rich kiddo. & then maybe she could end poverty by herself. Funny how we're so nonchalant about it, but there's just always one out of fifty people that would care about being selfless. We're what we do, good job kid.

Talking about greediness, I totally am. I can't stop allowing myself to see my bank account number to hike. I'll do whatever it is to see so, I've sold 20 items of mine away and I'm still digging for more because I want it to be so high even the sun is blinded.I refresh my gmail inbox every 5sec like literally and I think I'm gonna shout at myself for the increase in singtel bill for this month. Ah shit. & then I remember my $xxx M1 bill. Bloody shit, I'm so screwed. My salary would be burnt all for that. Sadness, rawr.

Right, was supposed to meet like gazzilion number of strangers today but bloody rain. I'm so lazy to go out, and I'm not even bathed yet. I want to be a bed potato now. I think I'm just gonna revamp my sales journal.

'fore I sign out, the past 5 months been an ass-rocking time.

JASMINE IS OUT! TAKE THAT SUCKAH.

Planned to wear out the red whit combi, but to my horror, my tummy was protruding out seeking for attention. Shucks, I think should heed zi's advice to start doing something to buff it up. So anyway, I ended up with blue white combi and me wore out my new tenbuckaroos striped shoes .

Went to mail out item, hougang library, cashed in sales journal money, carrefour & meet adora. Bumped to scott, hahaha. Same old scott, same old. Still fancy swearing under his breath what I was actually laughing to was his old habit since I couldnt hear a word he said. I'm so dead beat. Tomorrow I'll just lock myself in the room since I got koko krunch & lifetime supply of green tea

Homeboy gonna book in tomorrow, zomg! Me gonna miss you like so much I think I'm gonna sniff your lolli like I sniff glue! sniff sniff! Pizza today was very nice with you eventhough you wiped many oil on muh fave shirt, thank you love. Xiexie for all the hugs you could afford thoh you think it's pretty silly because two weeks just gonna vroom like this snap *snap. I'm sorry for all the dramas for these past few days, months but at the end of the day, me luv you like me luv no other. & don't you think my leg is so fierce! RAWR

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I'm banning myself from shopping until I manage to revive my account balance to at least a k with one less zero. I'm just going to diligently take photos of my sellable clothes everyday, and post it once a day daily in most communities and then run onto my knees put my palms together and pray to God people will buy them. This holiday is wicked.

The heat is killing me. I can't fucking think in this kind of intensity, ya git. Have not been eating regularly lately. Funny aye, just when you feel like going on a diet all the more reasons you'd binge on those sinful treats & when you're not even thinking of it, you forgot when was your last meal. Anyway, heat + empty stomache = faint. Passed out in church today. Gee, imagine if I were alone. Mygosh, I don't want to go back to chicken essence. The smell you see, can't take it man :(

Anyway, today was goodie. Fareast resulting in less money but more luvs, & workplace just increased my pay even before me starting work. Hi-5 to that sucker. More money = more clothes! more food with the girls! more cooking with zi! More happiness! You people who think money can't buy happiness prolly just don't know what you should spend it on.

Friend of mine tagged me in facebook as a proud. Hey, true that true that, rofl. I mean, c'mon, like as though you could not really tell from my blog. Every one is proud of themselves, just not showing. I just have more balls than you people add together do.

First, I got the job. Who's the man, who's gonna rock with all the cash for all the pretty clothes. I need to buy black covered shoes, and I'm dying for a highcut. Going to start working on 21st, but I think I'll opt for the next day because homeboy gonna be out then. I hope I can click well there. thats what counts the most, isn't it? Amen.Secondly, so since I'll be getting money flowing in triple; folks, sellingjournal & work, I think I should step up shopping game. rofl. & Babygirl gon have holiday soon. Shall visit sentosa then because I'm getting yellower by the day and it's eew. Slumber with her is always the funnest :D

Love me. Love you. Love God.

Today was such a bad tiring day. The heat was suffocating, & my thong sandals weren't in peace with me. But, look what the trucks let out. Pretty dress plus pretty top. O F21 is life's simple expensive pleasure.

I'm going for interview tomorrow folks, and this is what I'm going to wear. Effortlessly casual, rofl. I've yahooed on the interview, but my brother & mizi slammed me down saying just be confident. Yea, easy for them to say, they don't get people to do stuffs for them. I mean, my first job was because of my brother, my second job was from my friend. This far, I never get any job out of my own sweat. Everything been easy like peas.

If I have a lot of money // if I got the job, I want to slowly slowly buy everything up there. I got the sites, not the cash though ( insert sad face ). I hope I could nail the interview tomorrow, man. I shall explore polyvore now. Lookbook is such a banana, I mean c'mon, an invite for a sign up. Gee man, maybe you should probably have thought that every one has different style, and whats good to others may not be good to yer. & I think I'm just pissed cause I still don't get the invitation.

I'm not sure if this should go under sunday or monday.

So I been up since dawn with my neck aching, & I couldn't put myself to sleep eventhough I've remade the whole bed. I was just laying there watching nothing, hoping the neck would soothe itself ergo stopping the headache. Nothing happened though, except my imagination getting the better side of me I started .. nvm. So anyway, I got up to prepare food for sister and me. I smell of eggs and grills now.

I need coffee. I'm thinking of going down prata house to get my coffee fix. but I still owe them two dollars, and it's embarassing to go back there alone. I think I will bathe soon then, I don't want to go back to sleep. I don't want to dream of anthing these days, I don't want to wake up to anything these days.

Hope today gon go well. I'm so tired. sick and tired of myself.